man I am sleepy. I want to go do something. Actually now that I think abou it I want to go bowling. Have a few beers & bowl a shitty ass game. Sounds like fun huh? Well if you are up to it, let me know & we'll meet somewhere.

xoxo

what's up bitches.

I have had sevre heartburn for the last freaking week or 2. Ever since I went back to work - imagine that. I probably have a deadly fucking ulcer that is slowly killing me every time I walk into the office.

Well I had a kind of good feeling today. I walked into 7-11 to grab a frapaccino & a blueberry muffin for breakfast. A car full of hispanic men walked in before me. Well I was trying to get around them so I could get my morning desserts & one of them said something in spanish & was checking me out. At least that's what I am telling myself. Shit he could have said "Look at that fat bitch" in spanish & been trying to measure the size of my ass, but I am just going to tell myself that they liked my fat ass. LOL

OH! And we have had 2 nasty fucking spiders in our backyard this week. I mean they are fucking HUGE & they have little baby spiders all over their nasty fucking bumpy back. YUCK-O! I am freaking. I have to get some insecticide for the back yard before I freak out severly. Mark smashed one the other day & all these little spiders few off & started running. ACK! Just talking (or typing) about it is creeping me out. Ah, there goes a cold chill up my spine. I think they are wolf spiders but I am not sure, what ever they are need to go. We also need to get something to kill the freggin earwigs we have. They are EVERYWHERE. Ugh. I hate bugs.

Speaking of Mark......lol, we had to get a new lan mower because ours crapped out on us. Well, he put the setting to low before he mowed & killed the grass. I kept it so nice & green all summer long & now all we have is grass roots & dirt. LOL. Oh my. Now I have to work on getting it back in shape.

Anywho - I'm Outtie 5000
Peace
xoxo

okay, I went & signed up with this thing called My Space. Ever heard of it? Yeah well, I guess I am retarded because I don't know how to use it really. I know how to post & I know how to add people but I don't know much else. I think I will stick with my live journal. It's nice & comfy.

My stomach really hurts, my head hurts, I feel sick to my stomach - and I am on call tomorrow. Let's hope they don't call me. Or they will be paying me to be in the shitter.

xoxo

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UGH, last night SUCKED. I went to bed about 11p - notice I said I went to BED not SLEEP. Then about 11:30 Kuper woke up whining, I went in covered him up - he was fine - FOR ABOUT 30 MIN. Kuper started whining again. Again I went in & covered him up, hushed him & crawled back into bed. THEN Mark starts snoring like fucking crazy. So I tap him ask him to roll over. Then he starts scratching or something because the bed starts to move - I roll over & ask him to please stop doing what ever he is doing. Remind you it's about 1a now. So he starts snoring again. I say fuck it & head to the living room to sleep on the couch. I fall asleep about 2a, maybe.

Then I hear Kuper whining agian. At this point I say let Mark deal with it. I am on vacation, I didn't agree to baby duty by myself just because of the fact. I have been nice & gotten up with him all this past week because I was off & he wasn't. Well last night I just didn't give a fuck.

So, Mark does his best to be quiet when he gets up to go to work. His alarm woke me up twice (yes I was still in the living room) & it managed to wake up Kuper. It's like 6-6:30a - I think to myself "This fucking sucks. I am fucking tired & I don't want to be up." So I pass Mark in the hallway & give him a dirty look while I am on my way back to my bed. Doesn't help - Kuper is awake for good. SHIT. It's only 7a.

So I get up, go to the bathroom, sneak out back & have a smoke(the backdoor is in my bedroom & I don't smoke in the house). Then I come in brush my teeth & hear Evan yelling, "Mommy? Mommy? Mommy come here please." I ask him what the problem is & he says, "Kuper took his underwear off." I said,"You mean his diaper?" He says,"Yes, mommy. I saw his naked butt." So I am thinking - Crap. Hopefully he didn't shit & now has it all over. And hopefully he didn't pee all over." So I go in to find a DRY NAKED KUPER. Shew...........He was even smart enough to take his diaper off & put it up on the changing table & thank goodness it was only pee.

So if today gets any better I will let you know. I am supposed to be having dinner with a friend from work - so we will see if it's still ago. Now I am going to take the kids out back & let them run off some steam before I put Kuper down for his nap.

Lates Homies,
xoxo

This is a first that I can remember. North Texas will be hit by Hurricane Rita. Now according to weather.com the last hurricane to hit the Texas border was back in '83. I was a wee tot then, a little over 7 yrs old, so, no I don't remember it. But I am looking forward to the rain & drop in temperature.

Of course, it's all going to hit when my vacation is over & I have to go back to work on Sunday. So I will be driving in the shit - which won't be cool because of idiot drivers, but hey it will be cooler. The one thing I am not looking forward to are the high winds & possible tornandos. I hate tornandos. They scare the shit out of me.

I think it's worse now that I have kids. If it was just myself, yes I would still be scared but I don't think as bad. Having kids changes everything. You do everything you can to protect them, but in a sevre weather storm you are limited on what you can do to protect them. You can make sure that they are in a secure shelter - but after that, nothing more you can do but wait.

About a year ago a tornando came through our area, a weak one thank goodness, but I was 8 months pregnant & scared shitless. The most it did in our area was rip a few trees in half. It blew our fence over but that was about it. We were sitting in the bathroom listening to the wind try to grab the roof. My oldest son was in the closet (which was in the bathroom) laying down trying to sleep. LOL Ahhh, to have no worries again. I wish.

But anyway, back to Rita. The cooler temps will be a definate relief. Considering it's been in the upper 90s almost 100 this week - AND it's freaking September the end of September at that.

.......I spent today cleaning, feeding the kids, and playing games. Damn! This has been one wicked vacation. LOL

xoxo

Well it's about 98 out right now. The utlity guy came out & marked where there were cables - which in itself isn't great. Most of the backyard has cable lines running through it. So I have 3 shrubs that at maturity will grow about 5-8 feet high & wide & there's only a place for 2 of them. That is unless I make a garden above ground - which is possible but more expensive.

Speaking of shrubs - yesterday afternoon we came home from getting the boys shoes to find 2 of the neighborhood boys digging up the shrubs in our front yard- a shrub in which the landlord dished out money to plant - a shrub that is in our half of the rental property, which we are responsible for. These shrubs are planted around on of those green electrical boxes. My husband tried to tell the boys that there is a possiblility that they could get shocked - they ignored him. I went over to them & told them "You are digging up an area of ground that we are responsible for. So I suggest you stop because the landlord will be informed about it." (or something to that effect.) They stopped. I faxed the landlord about it. These are 2 of the same kids that trash our yard & have, in the past, been playing in our driveway & were banging on our garage. You know, you can't blame it all on the kids. They wouldn't have been digging up the shrub, trashing our yard or bangning on our garage - if their parents were around to take notice in what they were doing & punish them for it. I can tell you right now- if I came out & noticed my boys tearing up someone's yard or trashing the niehgborhood, he would be punished. First of all I would make him replant the shrub, then I would make him go to everyone's yard & pick up the trash - whether he put it there or not. But instead our neighbor came home after the fact & cleaned up her backyard - finally mowing it (the weeds were as tall as the fence) & taking out a gi-normous box of trash. I am thinking this only happened because her son told her I was reporting him to the landlord. And her teenage daughter smokes (which I have no prob with) & throws her cig butts in the yard - which in turn get blow into ours. And when the yard maint. comes by to mow they mow over the cigs & then we have cig peices all over the place.

SO I can't complain & say that my neighbors are noisy, because they aren't. But they are pigs. I mean who in their right mind allows their grass to grow 6ft tall, even thier weeds for that matter. (I only know how tall the weed are because they were sticking up through the fence - as tall as the fence on our side) I mean we don't mow every week - but when your grass starts resembling a wildlife habitat - it's time to mow. Now I know why we had an influx of spiders & we are also housing a lizard in the backyard. I don't mind the lizard - but the spiders - I mind.

Anyway, that's my bitch for the day.
xoxo

Wouldn't you know. On my week off the temp is hotter than hell - may be reaching 100. And the week I go back it drops into the 80s - figures. fucking weather.

I planed on planting all of my flowers & shrubs this week after the utility people mark the lines in the backyard. But I don't know that I will now since it's so fucking hot. I hate hot weather. But at the same time I hate cold weather.

Oh well. Off to play some games. (some vacation, huh)

xoxo

well i am off for the next week - do nothing more than to sit at home with the kiddos.

today I have enjoyed screaming, fit throwing & cleaning. Yea me!

I would prefer a day spa in, hm, let's say Hawaii? Just for a few days. That's not asking much, is it?

So I guess while they are taking their naps I will imagine me on a REAL vacation. LOL

It's a vacation from work at least. I need a fun job. Something where you aren't cooped up in an office for 8hrs everyday. You know something that would have you out on job assignments every once in awhile.

I was thinking DJ - but that means I would have to go back to school. I don't want to go bad to school just yet. I would also love to be a paranormal investigator. LOL Listen to me. I am 29 & still talking about what I want to be when I grow up. Shit.

anyway.

xoxo

So I am looking for another job - well I have my resume out there. It's getting ridiculous where I work. I have nothing but stress every fucking day when I am there. Fucking adults older than I am that can't follow basic instructions & so their fucking job. And I can't say that my manager helps the situation. When I complain about the fact that I can't get certain people to so what they are supposed to fucking do - she does nothing. I hate it. I feel like I have no one to back me up on the rules that are to be followed in that call center. I hate being a supervisor. The pay sucks. I don't get near what I should for my role. Ugh! I hate it.

I will be enrolling the boys into daycare come the first of the year. I don't want to, it makes me nervous. But my sister is ready to retire. She's pregnant again & doesn't want the stress. Which I understand. It will be good for them. They will have new friends. Evan will only be there for about 10 months because he starts school next year.

Geez, my boy starts school next year. Hard to imagine. But he's ready. He already talks about going - so I have referred to daycare as school so he will be more excited about it. I am a bit concerned with Kuper. He hasn't been around anyone but myself, my husband & his aunt & uncle. So he might not take it so well. We'll see. I plan on going up there on my vacation either this month or on my vacation in january to check the place out that I will be enrolling them in. I know someone who has their boy in there so I am not to concerned about it being a bad place because she has had a very good expierence with them.

Oh yeah. We had our first er experience with Kuper. We had to take him in a few weeks ago because he fell into the entertainment center & put a small cut near his eye. The dr was able to just dermabond it instead of using stitches since the cut was small enough. But it scared the hell out of me. I never want to do that again. I was a nervous wreck.

Anywho........here is a pic of my kids.


xoxo

Well Kuper is walking now. Mr. Big, now that I'm one year old. lol. So cute to watch him toddle all over. Evan is getting a kick out of it too. They are so good together - for now - we'll see what happens when they get older.

I love our new place. Nice a quiet, cold & big. Well bigger than what we have had in a long time. Landlord seems to be good. Has already resovled 98% of the issues we had when we first moved in. Now we just need to get the garage door opener from my parent & get it installed & I need to get my garden started.

I already have about 30 flowers to plant & getting 4 dragon bushes to plant. When it get s bit cooler it's time to till & plant. Needing to get fertilizer & incecticide for the lawn also.

We're going on spray #2 for the place due to black widows& other spriders. We have found 4 black widows & killed all of course. There are spiders everywhere here & it's freaking me out. I hate spiders. Last night some flying roach thing flew at me. I don't know that it was a roach since it was less than half the size of a normal roach but it still freaked me out. It flew inside when I was comin in the door & I tried to kill it & it flew at me. Needless to say I freaked and called Mark to my rescue. LOL. He said it sounded like I was dying. LMAO. Ah well. It doesn't bother me unless they attack. "When Bugs Attack Part 4" lol Damn I am a tard.

SO today I am waiting for a Directv installer to drop off our new receiver, waiting for the bug guy & then going to my sisters house for a bit til the insecticid dries. Then tomorrow I am supposed to help my sis paint her daughter's room. JOY! I told her I would help as long as she helped this fall when it was time to do my garden lol.

Anyway......off I go to stare at the idiot box like a large turd.
xoxo

Ugh! I think I am turning in to a social phob. You know - the person that can't stay at social events if there is no one there they know. I turned into an emotional idiot at a wedding tonight. Mark was in the wedding - so there for I had to sit by myself during the wedding. And then when we go to the reception he had to sit with the wedding party - which would have left me sitting by myself with a bunch of people I didn't know. So I left. I left a social even because the only people I knew there were in the wedding party & not sitting with me. Ugh! I seriously think I may be becoming a hermit. I don't go out unless absolutely necessary(sp?) & will only go if I know someone (minus the grocery store). Gosh I hate that. I feel bad for leaving the wedding but I damn sure wasn't going ot sit with a bunch of people I didn't know. Mark walked me out & felt like shit. Tried to explain it wasn't his fault but I couldn't stay if I wasn't comfortable - and I was far from comfortable. I cried there, I cried when telling Mark & I cried on the way home. I hate that I can't be sociable like most people - but it's me. If I don't know you, you will think I am a bitch because I won't talk to you. And it's not that I am being a bitch - it's I just don't know you & won't have much to say. Oh well. I guess I will just have to live with it. I seriously need more friends so I can go out & socialize more.

xoxo

Again, been a long time.

Some updates: we didn't get the house that we went through the whole fucking process of trying to get. Mark's credit it shot & that's what held us back. Damn It! Ahh well - I have already started to work on building my credit since I have none - I mean NONE - try a beacon score of 0! Yeah 0! So the only place to approve me for a credit card was Sears - which is a bit to expensive for my tastes but I actually managed to buy $170 worth of things - 5 things to be exact. When your a damn cheap ass you whole adult life, never having a credit card - spending money is hard - especially only getting 5 things & spending $170. Ugh!

Anyway, Evan is going to be 4 years old 6/19; Kuper is going to be 1 yr 7/15. They are SO BIG. I still to this day can't believe I am a mother of 2 (well 3 if you count the husband, lol j/k). Evan is 42" tall & about 41 lbs; Kuper is 31" & 24 lbs.

I am still working at the Hawk Electronics Corp Building in one of their call centers as a supervisor. I don't like it any more than I did before - still don't get paid enough - but it's a job.

OOHHH!! Mark now works (well starting 6/13) for an architecture firm!! Finally! He has been with the City of Fort Worth for about 9 months now. He likes it there but architecture is what he wants to do. Making the same as he was at the City so we aren't loosing anything as far as money i concerned. Only bitch I have is I have to get my company's shitty insurance reinstated again because insurance at the arch firm is $1200 a month for me & the kids - yes you read me right $1200 a month. Hell I don't think so.

Anyway. We are moving AGAIN next week - in the middle of 2 weddings. Have a wedding for mark's friend 6/4 & a wedding for my brother 6/10 - we are moving 6/10 - sucks for us. Oh well.

Email me if you like.
xoxox

What is it with the damn weather? I mean it's 70 one day & now it's 33 fucking freezing degrees outside & dropping. Ugh I hate Texas weather.

Anywho, on the brighter side. Our house is finally finished. It's built, completed - we close 1/14. Hopefully we can move in that weekend. If not, not that big of a deal. We hardly have anything packed & we have already paid $700 for rent this month.

My boys are getting big. Kuper is now 5.5 months, weighs 20lbs & has 2 teeth - working on #3. Evan is getting better about mouthing off & spending time in "time out". Ahhh, the life of a 3 yr old.

Evan had a great xmas. Got him a Gamecube & 8 games, spiderman stuff out the wazoo, etc. Of course my little addict is glued to the games.

Kuper is too young to understand what happened - except for the fact that paper makes a great noise & it's more interesting than the toy itself. lol

Well Evan is giving be subtle hints that he's hungry - so time to feed him. LOL
xoxo

Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?"

Agnostic
You've probably studied loads of different religions, but you're just not sure if any of it is true. Evolution makes some sense to you, but it doesn't satisfy you. Lastly, your personality is one of question, but you won't go out of your way to find -The Truth- It's more of a hobby.

I had my second little guy 7/15/04. His name is Kuper Trace. He weighed in at 8lb 12oz & was 20 1/4 inches. He will be 5 months old tomorrow & is almost 20lbs and close to 28" long. He's a big boy - jus tlike his brother was/is. Evan is now 3.5yrs old 38" inches tall & 40 lbs.

We will hopefully be moving in to the house we just had built for us in a few weeks - final papers have to go through. Doesn't look like we will be there for xmas but hopefully before the first of the year.

The temp here in good ole north texas has dropped. It was 40 degrees today & in the morning it's supposed to be in the 20s - BRRR! Gosh I hate cold weather. We have had a ton of rain & I am about sick of it. But I have loved the warm weather. Summer was very mild conpared to some we have had.

Anywho, for those that wish to do so - those that I haven't talk to in a LONG time (tee) - PLEASE email me. I would love to hear from you.

xoxo

7 days & counting.

I am scheduled for a c-section on 7/15/04 at 9am. Little Kuper will be here soon. I have been having some major pre-labor symptoms already. Major contractions, etc. It sucks. I see mu ob/gyn tomorrow so maybe he will check to see if I am dialating or not. If I am maybe little Kuper will be here sooner than expected.

xoxo